I'm still Alive!!!

I'm sorry it's been so long since I have been on here. I have made it to Connecticut safely and I have been going through a lot while I have been here. I'm working all the time and when I have spare time I go to the beach. :)
I hope you are all doing well, I will write again soon!

Stressed out...

GRADUATION WEEK!!!!

- So as my last post probably clued you in.... yes Ross and I did brake up. I'm still trying to get over the shock and hurt of it all. It has not ruined be going back there completely, but it has changed a lot of things, I will not longer be going to college in CT and that is stressful trying to find schools accepting and everything and basically that is where I feel I failed and it hurts. But I will be going to CT to work for the summer.... I feel like I can not let my Boss down just because he let me down...
but enough about that.................

- I have had finals all week and tomorrow is my LAST day!!! ahh!!

Graduation is this friday June 5th
Party June 6th
and moving Monday June 8th

So as you can tell I am stressed with college plans, moving plans, finishing high school, and well getting a new car (but thats a good thing)

Heart Broken...

I can't believe this is happening!!!!!!!! :(

Friend Making Monday...

How did you and your significant other meet?

I met Ross when I flew to Connecticut with my mom and my friend to go see my sister. (My sister lives with her boyfriend at the time and 4 other guys) So when I walked into her house, I look at there are two of her roommates sitting on the couch, I thought one of them was hot. When we went to my sister's room she looked at me and she was like do you think they are cute?! And I was like ya Ross is hot. Well my sister, having the big mouth she does... she told him the next day. We were then just flirting with eachother. My sister, Collin, My Mom, Haley, and Dustin were all going to head up to New York and Ross decided to tag along. Which was great. He had to leave that night and we texted his whole way home. The last night I was there we hit it off... he then left for an underway, and I flew home that same day. I was suprised to have an E-mail from him when I got home... and a couple weeks later we started dating!!! and I love him so much!!!! :)

Friend Making Monday

Today's task: Copy and paste these questions to your blog and give them your own answers.
http://kaseyhelder.blogspot.com/

You wouldn't be caught dead where?: I wouldn't be caught dead in a foreign country by myself

Do you have any hidden talents?: I can spit far lol!!!

Name two things you consider yourself to be very good at: Talking and Playing Soccer

Name two things you consider yourself to be very bad at: Being Patient and Not getting my way

Have you ever won a trophy?: Yep.. many in soccer

Name one thing not many people know about you: I enjoy going to school

Name your earliest memory: when I was about five years old, my friend and I flipped off a car as they drove by the house, and the guy came back and told on us, and we didn't even know that flipping someone off meant!!

What was your favorite musical group in jr. high?: Um, I'm not sure!?!

What was something the worst roommate you ever had did?: I haven't really had a roommate...

When you were a kid what did you want to be when you grew up?: a teacher

What was your worst dating experience?: Having my dad drive us home from a dance

If you were about to die what would your last meal be?: crispy chicken salad, or turkey curisant

Who is the most important person in you life?: I have many very important people in my life. My great grandma, my grandma and grandpa swanger, My mom and Dad, Josh, Kayla, Kami and ROSS!!!

If your house was on fire what 3 things would you grab on your way out?: My Pictures, My Cat Sailor, and My pillows and Ross's blanket off my bed.

Happy Birthday Babe

Happy Birthday J Ross
I love you so much and I wish I were there with you to celebrate!!!
You are so amazing and I can't wait to be in your arms again!!
I MISS YOU!!

I'd rather be with you

Sitting here, on this lonely dock
Watch the rain play on the ocean top
All the things I feel I need to say
I can't explain in any other way
I need to be bold
Need to jump in the cold water
Need to grow older with a girl like you
Finally see you are naturally
The one to make it so easy
When you show me the truth
Yeah, I'd rather be with you
Say you want the same thing too
Now here's the sun, come to dry the rain
Warm my shoulders and relieve my pain
You're the one thing that I'm missing here
With you beside me I no longer fear
I need to be bold
Need to jump in the cold water
Need to grow older with a girl like you
Finally see you are naturally
The one to make it so easy
When you show me the truth
Yeah, I'd rather be with you
Say you want the same thing too
I could have saved so much time for us
Had I seen the way to get to where I am today
You waited on me for so long
So now, listen to me say:I need to be bold

This song I have been listening to a lot lately, I would much rather be with J. I know it's not too much longer and I think that is why it's so hard. I miss him so much and I feel so lonely. I have been having my break down week, this week. I haven't cried, but it's the whole it a weird mood thing. I want to just be in his arms....

Other than that, I have been super busy babysitting and doing my graduation announcements...

I HOPE YOU ALL ARE HAVING A GREAT WEEK!!!!

Happy Mother's Day!!

Happy Mother's Day Mom...
You are the best mom in the whole world. I don't know what I would do without you. You have made me the person I am today. You have taught be everything I know. I love you so much. and I will miss you more than anything!!!

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY to all the wonderful mom's out there. Enjoy your day!!!!

Thankful Thursday

Thankful Thursday

1. I'm thankful that I have such a supporting and wonderful family

2. I'm thankful for my boyfriend, who is always there for me

3. I'm thankful that I will be attending SCSU

4. I'm thankful that MY SISTER IS PREGNANT.... I can't wait to be an aunt.

5. I'm thankful for everyone in my life

I hope everyone is having a great week!!!!!!

33 days...missing him...

That's right only 33 more day until I move, I couldn't be more excited. I'm a little scared leaving everyone behind, but I know everything will be ok. I miss J so much... we had a great weekend while he was here for prom.
He arrived here at 2 on Friday afternoon, and we exchanged gifts for our one year...
-Red Sox Tickets
-Boat Blanket
-Red Sox hat and shirt
I loved my gifts, he is so sweet and I can't wait to live with him.
After we did the gift I took him to Idaho, we had dinner then we walked the beach, and walked the boardwalk, and then went to ice cream with my brother and his girlfriend.

Saturday, I let J sleep in and then I made him breakfest in bed. and Then we went and did go karts and mini golf (I beat him in both :) ) We then grabbed a quick lunch and then he dropped me off for my hair appt, and then we got ready...
when I finally got to see his tux I was very suprised that he actually picked out something very nice. (Good Job Babe) He looked amazing, and was the hottest guy at prom.
We then went to dinner and prom and then went to my frined Shelly's for a party afterwards!!!
It was a great weekend!!! I love you so much J.

Busy Month Ahead....
May 4th- Happy Birthday Jaime (Friend)
May 5th- Happy Birthday Jake (Cousin)
May 6th- Happy Birthday Wesley (J's son)
May 17th- HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE!!!!!! (J)
May 21st- Happy Birthday Scott (Uncle)
May 24th- Happy Birthday Mom and Happy Birthday Dad
May 30th- Happy Birthday Josh (Brother)
May 31st- Happy Birthday Zane (Cousin)
(Talk about a lot of Birthday's)

May 10th- Mother's Day!!!! HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY MOM!!! I love you so much, you are the best mom in the whole world and you have taught me everything I know!!! I will miss you so much!!!!

PROM

The day he got to town.

The Group

I love him sooo much!!!!

Happy 1 year babe.

J-
You are my everything and I just wanted to write and say HAPPY Anniversary. I love you sooo much. I can't wait to see you in two days. I'm so excited for prom and to see you all dressed up. I miss you more than I can even begin to explain right now. But Happy one year handsome, you have made this the best year of my life and I have completely fallen in love with you. I care about you more than anything and you mean the world to me. I can't wait to celebrate our one year on friday. You are amazing babe and I love you with all my heart. You are the light in my day and you always seem to bring a smile to my face. 40 more days baby and I will be in your arms everyday!!! Being with you has made me the happiest girl in the whole world.
I love you my handsome amazing sweet loving wonderful sexy sailor, and I couldn't ask for a better boyfriend in the whole world.
I love you J Ross!!!

Love always,
Your Princess

--PS: I can't wait for the Red Sox Game!!!!(Just don't be too upset when my team wins lol) :)

Lucky #8

8 Things I'm Looking Forward To:
1) Prom in 6 days
2) Graduation in 40 days
3) Moving in 43 days
4) Memorial Day Weekend
5) Getting my hair and nails done for prom
6) Spending the summer with J
7) July 4th (Red Sox game)
8) Our 1 year

8 Things I Did Yesterday:
1) Tan
2) Coached my soccer team (they won)
3) Went to Olive Garden with my brother and his GF
4) Babysat
5) worked out
6) Went to dessert with my brother and his GF
7) HUng out with some friends
8) slept

8 Things I Wish I Could Do:
1) Be in J's arms right now
2) I wish I could be moving now
3) I wish I could go buy a new phone
4) I wish I could travel
5) I wish I could bake
6)I wish I had a career right now
7) I wish that everything will work out
8) I wish that my mom will do ok on her way home

8 Shows I Watch:
1) The Hills
2) American Idol
3) Dancing with the Stars
4) Secret life of the American Teenager
5) Army Wives
6) Extreme Home Makeover
7) Tool Time re-runs
8) anything good on

ABC's

A: Addiction: Texting
B: Breakfast(what you eat): nothing or a fiber one bar
C: Chocolate or Chips: chips lol
D: Dessert or Appetizers : Appetizers
E: Essential Items: Make-up and cell phone
F: Favorite Color :pink
G: Gummy Bears or Gummy Worms: Gummy bears
H: Hometown: Spokane, Wa
I: Indulgence: shopping
J: January or July: July... I Love summertime!! and its my birthday month
K: Kids: love them but have none
L: Life isn't complete without: Family, and friends and J
M: Most exciting memory: State soccer
N: Number of Brothers and Sisters : brother, 2 sisters"
O: Oranges or Apples: oranges
P: Phobias or Fears: fears of being alone and spiders
Q: Quote: friends are the ones who walks in when everyone else is walking out
R: Reading: anything good
S: Summer or Spring: Summer
T: Tag 6 people: anyone who wants to
U: Unknown Fact About Me: I enjoy school even tho it stresses me out
V: Vacation I want to go on: somewhere fun with J
W: Walking or Running: both
X: X-Ray or Ultrasound: x ray
Y: Your favorite food: fruit
Z: Zoo or Bowling: both

Busy

Hey all,
Sorry I have been so busy lately and haven't posted in a week. I'm sorry. I have been in a little slump and I have been so busy that I haven't had time. but I'm going to post some more pictures from the wedding that I love.
1 week until my man gets here!!
45 days until I move!!

My man and I

My Sister Kami, Sister Kayla, and Me on my Brother Joshs back

I feel so bad...

My amazing boyfriend was at work until midnight tonight, and they are on a 3 section duty so for all of you that don't get that (I don't blame you), but that means he stays at the boat for 24 hours every three days. Anyways back to my story, he has duty tomorrow and he got home so late, I feel so bad for him. It gets worse though, on sunday he is taking my brother in laws duty day because Collin is in a wedding, talk about a nice friend my boyfriend is. So not only did he stay until Midnight, but he has duty the next two days. Aw I feel so bad. These are seriously the nights I wish I were there so I could let him get into bed and fix him a quick dinner and let him eat quick and then rub his back and let him fall asleep and then get up the next morning earlier than him and make him a nice breakfest. (People tell me that it won't last long of me wanting to do that, but really I think I will do it for him everyday that I can because I love the feeling of "taking" care of him) Anyways long story short is that I feel bad for him and I miss him soo much and wish I were there. Only 51 more days until I move, can you tell I can't wait!?! :)
I'm so in love with him. I can't wait to see him in two weeks for prom, he fly's in on Friday afternoon and leaves early sunday morning, aw what my man does for me!!

I hope everyone has a GREAT weekend.

Snow...

Yesterday morning this what I woke up to. 6 inches of snow on April 14th, REALLY??? I thought it was suppose to be spring time. Life in Spokane, six inches of snow one Tuesday, and next Tuesday it's suppose to be 81 degrees. Wow. Some Weather we have here.

--I hate Ross having duty, I miss him so much of these days. :(

I have a doctors appt tomorrow, school, and projects to work on. ahh.

Hope you all are having a great week!!

To clear things up...

I got a comment from a lady today telling me her advice is to not move in with someone unless your married, as you can see I have a completely different view on that. When I first read it, I didn't let it hit me, but know that I have thought about, it's hit harder than I should let it, but lets clear somethings up first...

-I was suppose to move into my sisters, but her husband got orders to Washington therefore, I will not be living with her.

-I'm still going to college and getting my education, it's better than running off and getting married (then my parents wouldn't pay for college). I'm sorry I want my education first.

- I think it's better to get to know the person and how they live before you get married. I think you learn a lot about someone when you live with them. I know it's not the "ideal" thing to do in society today, but it's what I want. Society is so judgemental these days. But whatever I'm doing what I want and what is best for me and my boyfriend.

--I am so happy that I'm going to be moving in with him. I'm completely in love and this my decision and my family and friends are backing me up 100%.

Friend Making Monday...

I just saw this blog and thought I would join...
http://kaseyhelder.blogspot.com/

What is the Best Advice someone has ever given you?
--The best advice someone has ever given me would have to be telling me that communication is the most important thing when it comes to a long distance relationship, they told me that if we can communicate and make it work long distance then we are finally together everything will work out. I'm moving out there soon and I know that if we made this long distance work as long as we have then it's going to be AMAZING living with him.

--My next advice someone has given me has to do with deployment. Deployments are always hard, but they said if you stay busy it will go by faster. The first two months J was gone, I was not staying busy at all and it seemed like he was gone forever, and the days were dragging on. But after those two months I got super busy (School, Soccer everyday (Sept-Nov), working out, and family) but the last 4 months flew by, I didn't know where the time had gone. These two advice have helped me out so much in my relationship.

Whats the best advice you have ever been given?

Navy Girlfriend Poem

I'm so in love with my sailor,
yet we're always apart,
and though the days are hard,
he's always in my heart.

I hold him in my heart,
until he can be by my side,
and it gets harder and harder,
every night that passes by.

I see him in my thoughts,
and all my fantasies and dreams,
he's the only one I think of,
or so it truely seems.

I imagine all the good times,
the ones where we laughed and cried,
and I can only miss him more,
and wish he was by my side.

The ocean took him away,
and now I just want him here,
and I really wish in that moment,
that he could just appear.

Though I know he'll be back someday,
It still hurts me when he's gone,
and I wish he never had to leave me,
but somehow I still move on.

I worry for him and his safey,
and secret tears will flow,
but through all of this,
he still loves me so.

I'm so proud of my navy boy,
and I can't wait to see him again,
but this is the hard and joyful life,
of what we call a navy girlfriend.


I can't even begin to tell you how hard this is getting. I hated knowing he was sitting at home all alone on Easter, I wanted nothing more than to just be there with him and have a nice dinner with him. It brakes my heart when he is lonely. :( Each day that passes only gets harder. I can't wait to be back there in 56 days.

--> Babe I miss you so much, but I'm staying strong for you. I can not even explain how Proud I am of you. You are my everything J and I can't wait to live with you. You are amazing and I love you with all my heart. 19 more days until I get to see you again... our shortest amount of time apart. Prom will be amazing because I will have the best date there. I LOVE YOU baby. I can't thank you enough for flying all the way across country just for my Prom and then flying out the next day, it means the world to me. I fall more in love with you each and everyday. You are my everything.