Today I just broke down. I hate being so far away and I miss him so much!! I love being there with him, even if he is playing video games and I'm just laying there on the bed or I'm getting ready. Just knowing he is close is the best feeling in the whole world. I thought I would start to get use to this, I mean thats all our relationship ever has been except for the times when I go and visit, but it's getting harder. I try to hold it all in and not tell anyone how much I really miss him, but today I broke down. I think it's from being tired and stressed out that I just started crying. I mean I'm laying my heart on the line for him and I have fallen in love with this guy. I only have a few months and I will be living there, and I can't wait. I can't wait to just be in his arms again, the place where I feel like the luckiest girl in the whole world. He means the world to me and I would do anything for him. I truly hope he feels the same way. He is so amazing and I couldn't imagine my life any other way. He is the one that puts a smile on my face everyday and even though there are tears right now, it's only because I love him so much and it's his touch that I'm missing. Phone calls and Texts can only do so much.
I'm going to start tomorrow with a new day and smile on my face because I love him and I'm going to be strong. I know I can be, it's just been a long day.
I love you J. Ross!!
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