Wishes BROKEN...

Today has not been very good at all, I was so excited to go back to Connecticut and I couldn't wait, I have a job interview, I have a tour of the college, and I just miss him so much and wanted nothing more than to be there with him, but he called me tonight when he got out of work and said he would probably have to leave with the boat next week. Ross was going to go to school starting next monday instead of leaving with the boat, but now he probably has to leave. It was instant tears... Not just because I MISS him, but because I don't know what to do now?! I have a flight booked, a interview planned, and a tour of college. What do I do? It's hard because I'm so proud of him and words will never be able to describe how proud I am of him, and I hate showing him that I'm upset about it, because I want nothing more than to just support him through everything and I know it's his job. It's just hard, I'm new at this whole Navy Girlfriend thing, I mean he just got home from a deployment and I didn't think anything could be much worse, but I guess there is. I'm trying to stay strong.... but it's getting hard!!! These tears aren't stoppin. :(